Hi. My name is….well…I am not going to tell you that yet. Not to protect myself…as much as it is to protect those I love. See, I am planning on writing everything. My whole story. Unedited. Raw. Real. MY story. And, though it is all 100% real and honest, that honesty has the potential of hurting those I love. So, for now…I am keeping this anonymous.
“Why write it then?” You may be asking…well…the answer is simple, really. Because I think my story may be able to help people. My story is not all that unique. Not all that uncommon. Yet, one that no one likes to talk about. Not many people are comfortable coming out to the world and saying, “Hey everybody! Guess what?!?! I wanted to kill myself!” Yet, I have come to realize, that if someone, anyone, had told me THEIR story when I was going through my personal hell, it would have helped.
Depression is isolating. It is debilitating. It is real. It is scary. It is horrific and tragic. It sucks. It really fucking sucks. And in the depths of it, you feel alone. You feel like a failure. You feel weak. You feel exhausted. You feel helpless. You feel sad. You feel just flat out DONE.
D. O. N. E.
My story will come out…slowly…and my plan is try to post everyday. I will try to piece it all together as well as I can, and I hope you can follow along, should you decide to. And I promise to be real. And honest. And lay it all out there. In return, I ask that you keep my identity a secret, even if you know who I am. I ask that you don’t pass judgement on me, or anyone involved in my story. And I ask that you pass the link to my blog along to anyone that you may think it could help. Anyone that you know that is suffering from depression and could benefit from knowing that they are NOT alone, and that it CAN (and will!!!) get better.
Organized Musings of a Chaotic Mind 